“Under the sea” from the Little Mermaid is my theme song.
Just as the song says, “We got no troubles, life is the bubbles”, the underwater world opened my mind to what life is about. Massive coral structures, sea fans decorated in pink flamingo tongues, schools of bright fish dancing to the natural beat of the ocean, and the familiarity of being at home in an alien world. The intricate communities with the most diverse relationships between the strangest of species. Massive octopus’s nestled between the smallest of cracks with the remainders of the shells they had recollected from their meals surrounding them, making them known as the “messy eaters” of the sea. The ocean represents life to me.
“Thalassophobia- … afraid of the ocean”; Something I would have considered myself while growing up, I was terrified of the ocean. It wasn’t until the summer of 2020 when I heard a seagull for the first time in months (due to Covid-19) that I realized my fear was just excitement masked in self-hatred and depression. My family issues had been deteriorating any life I had left, I had let it seep into my state of mind, driving me into an intense depression which I thought would be the end of me. I was drowning in distaste for life, little did I know I had to drown to be reborn into my truest version of myself, a spiritual mermaid. The survival mode which I entered would be the grounding force for fighting depression. It was something about this alien world, full of color and life, that dispelled away the dead energy that was slowly killing me.
As I took my first giant stride off the back of a “Rainbow Reef” boat and into the pristine Florida Key’s, I was felt an overtaking frisson of fear. This giant stride was an allusive moment for the subsequent years of my life, I dove 6o feet into my soul that day. My Open Water Certification in 2020 was the beginning of a new life. SCUBA Diving gave me that chance to be a spiritual mermaid, when I attach myself to a tank that would carry the next 30 minutes’ worth of air, I feel a part of something lager than myself.
After my “rebirthing”, I wanted to be the proof for others that there is an afterlife to mental illness, addiction, and self-hatred. It is the way that living that polarity allowed me to be a little bit more grateful every day, a little more excited to drive over a bridge to my high school, a little more thrilled to see different colors throughout my day, a little more compassionate with friends and family, a little more in love with life. I want everyone to experience “a little more” life.
The person I am today is entirely based on every life experience I have had which led to this moment. The sole bond which I share with the ocean is irreplaceable and I owe the Ocean my life, which is why I want to pursue marine biology. When I was 4, I dressed up as the little mermaid for Halloween, I’d say it was a foreshadowing moment for who I am today, and my inner child is proud. I now am a Master Scuba Diver and entering the industry, under the sea is where I want to be. The way the dancing motion of the waves caresses the seagrass calmed me down led me to have a life goal to share a goal to help others find themselves through the Ocean’s universal love.