Maya Angelou once said, “You will face many defeats in your life but never let yourself be defeated.” Everything that I have been through in my life has molded me into the woman I am today. I grew up in a “traditional” household, with my both my parents and three siblings. In all actuality, my household was not traditional, and my life was anything but normal. At six years old, I was diagnosed with Type One Diabetes. For a little girl who loved candy and pastries, the news hit harder than a wrecking ball. Confusion, anger, and loneliness were amongst the many emotions I felt that followed me for years to come. I questioned my parents, my faith, and resented my siblings for being “normal”. I wasn’t able to, at the time, see anything but the limitations this disease would place on me. The first few years of being diabetic were my most challenging. I did not want to accept that I would have to prick my finger at least six times a day. I also did not want to accept that this would be with me for the rest of my life because there was no cure. I bottled up my emotions and harbored resentment towards everyone that could not empathize with my situation. My parents often fought a lot growing up, and I believed that my diagnosis would change everything. I was erroneous to say the least.
During their marriage, my father continuously cheated on my mother. He would also bring my siblings and I around his mistresses unknowingly burning bridges with our family. At eight years old, I thought I could manage things on my own and found myself in the back of an ambulance truck. I accidently overdosed on Insulin and did not understand my symptoms at the time. Thinking I was just tired, I went to sleep not knowing that I was feeling weak because I had too much insulin in my system. At that time, I thought this was one of the worst experiences I would have to deal with in my life, not knowing the other challenges life would throw my way. The Summer of 2016, my family and I were evicted from our home. My mother, younger brother, and I had to stay in a hotel for two months. During that time, I learned the importance of being resilient. I learned to transcend, not just my own health challenges, but realized I had to be strong for my family’s sake. Watching my mother, cry and worry everyday broke parts of me that I did not know existed
My mother saw potential in me that I never knew I had. She would inspire to me to push through any adversity that blocked my path. I believed I could excel in life because I had her as a mother. I believed in myself because this resilient woman believed in me. Whenever things got rough, or I felt inadequate, I would think about everything she sacrificed for me. She stretched any penny she had to provide for us. She made sure we had uniform for school, food to eat, shoes on our feet. Even after she lost her job, my mother still created a safe space for us to grow up in and feel safe and accepted. I never had to question her love for me and the extreme measures she’d go to make sure that I was up to par.
I would say the only downside of being raised in a single parent household would be outsiders. I would often find myself in situations where people automatically assumed, they knew my story. It did not make matters easier being an African – American female with melanin skin complexion. I learned to let people assume whatever they want to. My drive and determination will speak louder than any word I could ever utter. I would like to pursue the accelerated Bachelor of Science in Nursing program to accomplish my dream of becoming a Pediatric Endocrinology Nurse Practitioner. Having lived with such a debilitating disease while navigating life’s difficult challenges, I feel I have matured into an understanding and empathetic person. I want to be the unwavering support for others that suffer from such life-altering diseases and show them that they too can persevere and achieve the very future they envision for themselves. If I can inspire, just one person in the way that my mother has inspired me, I would be content.