Surprise Song O Clock: 9:30 pm
Current time: 9:25 pm
My fingers crawl across the screen searching for the live-streamed show. Every night that Taylor Swift has a show, I tune in and it is the highlight of my day. You see, there is a point in the Taylor Swift concert when she performs two songs acoustically. The catch is that she only performs each song once, and it's a secret until two and a half hours into the concert. I love watching all the TikToks that come up of the girls who do insane calculations on what songs could come out each day and making lists to see which songs are left.
Soon after I started checking into Surprise Song O Clock, I realized that I did not look forward to much. On the days that there was a concert, I looked forward to Surprise Song O Clock, but on the days with no concert, I could barely get through the day. That sounds sad, but it is the truth. During the day, I went to school, came home, did homework, and then watched the day’s surprise song. Up until the time I watched the small portion of the Eras Tour, I was miserable. It was school, homework, rinse, and repeat. I had no social life, no personal time, nothing.
Slowly, after realizing that I did not look forward to anything in my daily life, I decided that I needed change. I have watched hundreds of self-improvement videos throughout my life for temporary motivation, but one thing that is similar between all the videos is that you need drive and determination, not motivation. Drive and determination are long-term, whereas motivation is short-term.
But, I did not have drive. I was just a girl who needed to get into college. After that, who knows? The surprise song O Clock was a reminder of my bleak life, so after each set of surprise songs, I journaled. Journaled about the life I wanted to have when I grew up. I would highlight the two to three things that I valued most from each journal section. On days without a concert, I would create a list of the recurring themes. The Eras Tour in the United States ended just in time for the new school year. Before school started, I made a long journal entry and described my dream life in all aspects. I also, in that same entry, created a list and timeline of how I could achieve that life. From the majors that could land me the job, to the colleges where I could earn the best degree, and the jobs that could support my lifestyle. I yearn for that dream life, and that yearning is my drive. The dream life is not a want, it is a need.
Without Surprise Song O clock, I would still be a lost, confused student with only motivation, and no drive. Taylor Swift has been such an influential figure in my life, not only because of her music but in the way she has inspired me to create a plan for my life.