After three years of competing in second-tier lineups on my rowing team, I finally had my “breakthrough” season. Medaling by myself at the second largest regatta in the country and claiming the only gold medal of the fall season justified all my off season training and hard work. The effects of my success on the water carried over into my social life as well, granting me entrance to the group of elite varsity rowers on the team. Although being part of this group, racing by myself, and winning on my own merit was gratifying, I joined rowing because I loved working with my teammates. I thought that becoming team captain would give me the respected title I needed to change the mindset and work ethic of the team to one as hardworking as my own. However, I soon learned that respect is earned, not given.
After applying to be team captain, my coach made a surprising decision; she announced me and Jocalyn, the previous captain, as co-captains. Despite our dislike for our titles, Jocalyn agreed with my vision to change the team. Our good intentions, however, were met with hostility. My teammates refused to acknowledge me as a captain, and the team bonding activities and extra practices I organized were completely disregarded. In the face of our team’s opposition, me and my co-captain were completely stunned.
Amidst a pandemic, the recruiting process, and a stressful junior-year course load, the high from my breakthrough season transformed into self doubt and left me questioning my ability to be a captain. When Jocalyn broke down in the middle of a workout, it seemed as if all hope was lost. Even though I had initially disliked our co-captain positions, the girl crying in front of me had been my team captain before we had been co-captains. I looked up to and respected Jocalyn more than anyone else on the team, and it stunned me to see her crumble during a workout.
On our way out of practice that night, Jocalyn opened up to me about the pressure she felt to perform well at every practice because she had been recruited to row in college. Upon hearing her confession, the true responsibility of being a leader hit me. When Jocalyn was my team captain, I worked hard because she worked hard. Seeing her push through her workouts and encourage others to get through theirs made me want to persevere through mine. Even when she broke down in front of me and confessed her own insecurities, I never doubted that Jocalyn was a strong rower and leader. I realized that I couldn’t change the mindset and work ethic of my teammates, but I could change my own by modifying the way I handled the responsibility of being a leader.
After the opposition I’d faced from my teammates, I accepted that my time as captain had come to an end. When our coach quit at the beginning of the next season, however, the topic of team captain became the least of our concerns. Our new coach asked me to help him during his transition, and I found myself effortlessly stepping up to take charge. Instead of preaching to my teammates about the value of hard work, I simply gave them the opportunity to work hard. Switching around lineups, listening to their feedback, and facilitating productive discussions proved more effective than extra workouts in creating a motivated team environment. My team had a strong fall season of racing, and I can’t wait to see what happens in spring.