Chang Heaton Scholarship for Music Excellence

As a BIPOC individual who has experienced youth homelessness, holds previous art degrees, and triumphed over past abuse, having a career in the arts holds much importance to me. My journey has been a testament to the transformative power of artistic expression, and through my work in theater, dance, piano, and singing, I have found healing, growth, and a sense of purpose that I am determined to share with the world. Growing up as a BIPOC individual, I often felt like an outsider, marginalized by the world around me. Youth homelessness further exacerbated this feeling of isolation, making it difficult to envision a future where my dreams could come true. However, it was during these challenging times that I found solace in the arts. Whether it was losing myself in the rhythm of salsa or finding my voice through the piano, the arts became a sanctuary where I could be truly myself. These were expanded upon when I receieved past degrees in Graphic Design , Digital Media , & Visual Communications. My past experiences of abuse were particularly traumatic, leaving deep emotional scars that took time and effort to heal. Through this expression I found a therapeutic outlet for processing the pain and confusion. The arts allowed me to channel my emotions into a creative force, gradually transforming my pain into strength. It was in this journey of growth that I realized the immense potential the arts hold for healing and empowerment, both for oneself and others. Currently, I am actively involved in film, dance, and piano, honing my skills during the many current creative strikes. These outlets have become an integral part of my identity, shaping my perspective and influencing the way I approach life. In film, I discovered the power of storytelling, enabling me to find my inner voice and confidence. Dance taught me discipline and perseverance, showing me that every step forward, no matter how small, contributes to the grander narrative of progress. The piano has been my constant companion, allowing me to express myself when words fail and connecting me to the depths of human emotion. Moreover, my experience of singing at Carnegie Hall was a defining moment, not just in my artistic journey but in my life. It was a dream come true, affirming that with dedication and resilience, I can turn my aspirations into reality. Having a career in the arts is not just about pursuing a passion; it is about making a meaningful impact on the world. I believe that as an artist, I have the responsibility to use my talents to amplify the voices of marginalized communities, to advocate for social change, and to inspire others to find strength in their own stories. My journey as a BIPOC individual who has experienced youth homelessness, past abuse, and growth from those experiences, serves as a testament to the power of the arts to uplift, heal, and empower. In conclusion, having a career in the arts is not a mere choice for me; it is a calling that has emerged from the depths of my experiences and the resilience I have cultivated along the way. Through the arts, I have found purpose, healing, and the courage to embrace my true self. As an artist, I am committed to breaking barriers, shattering stereotypes, and creating a world where every voice is heard and celebrated. The arts have been my guiding light in the darkest moments of my life, and I am determined to use that light to illuminate the paths of others, spreading hope, joy, and empowerment through the transformative power of artistic expression.

A career in the Arts is important for an individual who seeks a path of self-expression and creative fulfillment. Artists from various backgrounds such as painting, music, theater, and literature play important roles in our society helping to enrich culture, inspire change, and establish connections among people. For some time now I've been involved in the world of theater and it has given me an outlet like nothing has before. I have been able to do things such as process emotions, find personal growth and fulfillment, and help inspire others. The role of Jack, from the musical Newsies, came at a point in my life I could relate to him in so many ways. I was struggling mentally. I had just been adopted, a milestone that I should have been happy about, but ended up having the opposite effect. I was unsure of the direction of my life, and I just wanted to get away. Jack wanted to escape his life in New York after dealing with so much and move away to Santa Fe. The process of bringing him to life was one of the most therapeutic things I have ever done. I discovered how to process my emotions by getting to tell his story over and over every night on stage. Jack taught me to not run away from fears, uncertainty, and problems. Instead, both Jack and I learned to face our fears together on stage and that was when I realized I am, and will always remain, strong. As my drive to constantly improve keeps going, I find myself encountering challenges that push me beyond my comfort zone, pushing me to explore my abilities. And with the help of various mentors, I have been able to tap into things such as Empathy, adaptability, and emotions I have never thought id be able to . The process of bringing stories, such as Jacks to life instilled a profound sense of purpose, which will hopefully lead to a career that with each performance I do, I find out a bit more about myself. As a performer, I have witnessed how theater can ignite conversations, evoke emotions, and spark meaningful change in audiences. After my performance as Jack I received several messages from people who I went to school with. They told me how powerful it was to see a gay person of color leading a musical. Especially since it was a role that had been played by prodomantaley white gentlemen. They also told me that by watching me perform, they too felt a confidence in them to go out for things they wouldnt usually go for. I’ve learned that what is often performed on stage can almost always relate to real life topics, struggles, triumphs, and universal experiences, sparking some sort of internal thought amongst audience members. Through storytelling, I hope to touch hearts, open minds, and encourage empathy, contributing to a more compassionate and connected society. Theater has and will always be my guiding light on a journey of self-discovery, personal growth, and artistic fulfillment. As an outlet for emotions and a platform for storytelling, it has allowed me to channel my creativity and passion into something truly outstanding. The ability to inspire others and push boundaries is truly something special. As I continue on this path, I am driven by the thought that through theater, I am able contribute more empathy, inclusivity, and overall confidence to our society. The arts have the capacity to leave a lasting impact on individuals and communities, and I am eager to be a part of this profound artistic journey.

Black women. They are hardly ever seen as talented, respected or accomplished. Instead they are deemed aggressive, lazy and unmotivated. Specifically in the music industry. However, Black women have been the masterminds behind influential music for decades. Including today. As a Black woman, to even be considered in the music industry, it's necessary they dress appropriately and act accordingly. And if they don’t, they get dismissed. An example of this concerns Jhene Aiko; she appeared on several popular boy-band's 2002 releases with vibrant R&B tracks. She was then set to release her debut album but there were tensions within her record label because of her “style and manner”. She was later released from the label. This outrageous flaw in the music industry makes it very difficult for Black women to showcase their talents and abilities. Spectators, however, crave their sound, soul, and passion. Just not their race or gender. This creates an extreme disadvantage to Black women while simultaneously creating an advantage to white and male musicians. What often happens is, white and/or male musicians will take a Black woman’s unique piece of work and change it slightly to then claim a whole new creation. A great example of this is Big Mama Thornton being the blueprint to Elvis Presley's greatest songs. Thornton wrote and originally recorded Presley’s Hound Dog. She gained very little recognition or profit for Hound Dog. The song’s origins as a female empowerment tune disappeared after Presley’s version was released. Spectators adore this because it still gives them the quality of a Black woman’s work without having to give them credit. This system is very difficult to overcome but there have been some tremendously talented Black women who have fought. Such as, SZA, Billie Holiday, Alicia Keys. What I want to do at The New School is to become an exception. Not only an exception but hopefully a precedent too. Just like the women I mentioned before. They set the path for aspiring Black, female artists like me. In addition to majoring in Music Production at Rider University, I plan to minor in Management and Leadership to ensure I will make change in the music industry. This will give me opportunities to collaborate with students and work towards our goals. I plan to invest in my future with internships and working on campus. With the help of this scholarship, I can beat the statistics and inspire others.

Growing up, I never knew what I wanted to be. A lot of kids around middle school and high school start to develop an understanding of what they want to do as adults. Many people go into science, striving to become doctors, nurses, or even physicists. Others tend to go towards other fields involving mathematics, education, or social sciences. However, I didn’t take an interest in any of these things. While I was good in math and psychology I always felt myself gravitating towards the thing I loved most, music. In high school, Choir was the only class I looked forward to every single day, regardless of what we were doing. I loved everything about music. From how expressive you could be to portraying a different emotion with just the sound of three notes played on a piano. Music and singing helped me express myself in a way words can’t and to this day continue to move me regardless of how complex or simple it is. When I got to college, my horizons started to expand on the possibilities that you could do. I soon went into the music program to see all of these different opportunities for a music career. This is when I found my love and passion for Music Production and Recording Arts. Being able to make and produce not only my music but other people’s music is something I wanted to do for so many years, but could never express. I feel that through this career, I can help others express their emotions or feelings around the world with something that I love. This career can also help me create music for others to enjoy and connect with. Whether it’s to help someone on a bad day or to help someone escape into another world, there’s a way to connect regardless. Having a career in music is so important to me, as music is my way of connecting and communicating with other people. I also want to show that as a person of color, this is another path that you can take. Other than my parents, I never had teachers or role models that looked just like me, and it was hard to see myself in any other position other than the stereotypes social media and movies portray of Asian Americans. I want to show others that you can pursue careers that you are passionate about or provide young Asian Americans with another role model that looks exactly like them. I understand how hard it could be to pursue something you love so much. As a first-generation college student, I understand the pressures and challenges of family members wanting you to become something you won’t be happy with. As they want to pursue careers such as doctors, lawyers, or even scientists. However, I want to prove that you can be just as successful in these careers when you choose something you are passionate about. Music has such a huge impact on my life, and I want to be able to use this as a career to help those around me. Connecting with people without words is such a powerful tool that I want to harness and use throughout my entire life. That is why a career in the arts is important to me. We need people who can connect and communicate with one another, without the difficulty of words. Music breaks the barrier between languages and words and is a universal language that I want to hone and use to help not only myself but those who need a connection.

As a black musician, walking into choirs that aren't strictly gospel, auditions that aren't solely musical theatre or pop and r&b, I'm instantly put on the edge, like a mouse who has stepped foot into the lion's den. It's not hard to see that I don't belong; I'm not welcomed. That's been my constant battle every day I pursue my career in the arts. As P.O.C artists, we walk into an audition room and instantly see a sea of blondes and brunettes, reminding us we are walking into a world that is not made for us. Even when we have breakout artists like Paul Robeson and J'Nai Bridges and many other prominent black artists, we are still never respected. Their talents and accomplishments equated to them being diamonds in the rough. Baffled faces as I tell someone I'm singing a classical aria because "A black man doesn't sing opera." I've always struggled to find mentors because no one really wanted to take me on. I was new to them, an anomaly to their natural order. Comments about how "full" or "soulful" my voice was, or my favorite, the cold honest truth, "I don't know how to work with your type of voice." Professionals with years of training who couldn't work with my voice. That's why I work so hard to have a career in the arts. Representation matters, and it's essential to have it for younger generations. One face that's all I wanted, one face that looked like mine, a face that could tell me I was safe, I was okay! One person to say I have a voice like yours, one person to take me under their wing-like I saw so many of my white peers receive. I want more for us. I'm pursuing my career as a music educator to show younger generations that we can have this skin and sing in choirs; we can have this hair and be classical singers. Breaking down the look that has become ingrained into the professional singing world. Just one face being there who looks the same as those potential kids can inspire them. I want to train to be able to work with everyone's voices, not just the ones that fit my style and sound of singing. We deserve to be treated and seen as equals, and that starts with more of us developing the drive to pursue our careers in the arts.

Having a career in the arts is essential to me because of the simple fact that it is NOT just important to me but my liberation. As a developing adolescent with a slightly flamboyant flair, my family and I didn't have the luxury to do as we pleased or take up certain hobbies and other trades. We were movers, workers, and hustlers who were always on the go, just trying to gain all the knowledge we could to put food on the table to create small magical moments that were just half as good as any other typical family. From Backyard Birthdays, the Occasional but rare vacation out of state, to a simple evening stroll on the gentrified side of town and stopping at a quaint little bookstore, not to purchase the books, but to escape the world we know and into the pages while getting lost in that new book cover smell. We were simpler people then, limited in the spaces we were confined to, yet we made diamonds out of the stones we were given. Fun memories were made, but that's what it only became and remained; a memory. Life went on, and we returned to our demanding day and office jobs and the public school systems that reflected the struggling but hopeful community and lifestyle around us. School in Chicago, for me, was just a continuation of surviving the city itself. By surviving, I mean just getting through and making it to the next grade; after all, I didn't have the time to get caught up in the small things like maintaining friendships that last or going to after-school programs; the atmosphere and location were just too uncertain for all that. With that straightforward mentality, it was easy to stay focused and excel even if you weren't trying to, like a lack of rigor. With school not much of a threat, my parents were proud of me for being able to be on top of it. At the time, all they could ever want from me was to be myself, go to the top, and thrive. The problem was I didn't know how. I didn't know what I wanted and felt I did not have a lot of options at the time. Looking at my parents, I didn't get much of a clue either. My Dad dropped out of High School, married my Mom, and had a job as a server in a restaurant, while my Mom, who had me while in college, went on to work a regular office job. I was like a blank card in a UNO deck, feeling very out of place. I was meant to do something but felt lost; until one day it found me. Theatre. My Mom, unbeknownst to me, signed me up for a community production of Aladdin. During that entire experience, something clicked within me. Suddenly the world made sense, and it slowed down for me to be able to feel free. Things had nuance; there were characters with stories, and there was expression through songs and dance sequences. No part felt small or more prominent than what was showcased; I felt like I was a part of something bigger than myself, even if just for a moment. Though it took some time to build up, a career in the arts is vital to me because there is nothing quite like it. Since my first play, nothing has come close to my love for Theatre. I'm all in with no signs of withdrawing, no backup plan, nothing. The art form is my life's true purpose.

It was the arts that first inspired me. I was 7 years old when I asked for my very own violin, and my mother, who knew nothing about music, scraped together enough to buy me one and get me lessons so that I could learn. Through my years at magnet art schools, I continued with music (eventually switching to cello) and was able to make friends, go to schools and extracurricular programs, and so much more because of that first ask for a violin. Having a career in the arts is important to me because not only did I make life-long friends within the artistic spheres that I was apart of, but also because I saw the positive change that it made in other people's lives. I had a lot of friends who came from underprivileged backgrounds, who were struggling to find their footing, and our identities, as first generation americans, and it was the arts and specifically in my case music, that allowed us to find common ground despite our endless amounts of differences. I want to be able to give those opportunities to others in a positive way for their own careers and stories. I want to be able to give the opportunities that I had, and that my mom and I worked so hard for together to others, and maybe give them the ability to have a career surrounded by something they love doing rather than something they took up just to make money or support their families.

In second grade we took turns answering, “If someone could play you in a movie, who would it be?” I sat there not listening to anyone except my own thoughts while I panicked. As the only Asian student in the class, I saw all eyes looking at me when it was my turn. I don’t remember what I said, but I remember how I felt. I felt stupid and thought it was so unfair these students had so many different choices. As much as my teachers encouraged imagination and dreaming big, I felt like that advice excluded me. Years later at 18 years old, I gained the confidence to know that I have the ability to change that perception. I think back to that experience and I think it’s interesting how small questions and experiences can have such an impact years later. Because around the same time that happened, I told my parents I wanted to be an actress. I just saw the Disney Channel and I thought it would be fun. It was a harmless little comment from a six year old. My dad pointed at the Olympics on the TV and said, “Do you see any of us winning? No. We stick to what we’re good at.” I didn’t understand why he said that. What was I supposed to be good at? Being against acting was no longer the main issue, but it was finding out what Filipino Americans are supposed to be doing. All my six year old brain picked up was, “No arts. You don’t belong there. Find something else.” And that stuck with me for over a decade. I never even thought about pursuing acting until the lockdown in 2020. I spent hours watching movies and I spent my time after class memorizing monologues. I feel a spark in me when I memorize monologues or watch recordings of myself. There’s a spark to do better or a spark of joy celebrating my performance. When I pursue my other hobbies like running or coding, I don’t feel that special spark. It’s a very specific feeling that I intend to chase for forever. I want to do art to make a change, to be that someone I longed for on the screen when I was younger. This goal and career of mine is important to me because it’s what I love. There’s no greater feeling than watching yourself nail a monologue. When you’re born, there’s no set path on which you should be on. Everyone should be able to choose who should play them in a movie without hesitation or shame.