I have been diagnosed Bipolar, with psychotic features and anxiety since I was twenty-four years old. I had always suspected something was wrong with me, even as an adolescent. I never quite fit in, and never really received exceptional treatment from anyone. I was always a little bit on the shy, quiet and meek side, and a bit of a loner. I never thought that I would actually get diagnosed and receive therapy though. I’ll never forget when I was told I’d have to take medication everyday for the rest of my life. I was hurt, scared, confused. What I didn’t know, was that it was the beginning of embarking on an incredible life’s journey. I had been given a purpose.
I honestly love treatment, therapy and recovery. I am a whole person today. I was given the opportunity to pull myself together at my darkest hours. That, and my belief in God. I know myself, love myself, trust myself to the maximum. I’m outgoing, bubbly and talkative. One of my managers wrote that I’m a joy to work with in my work evaluation once.
I just love talking to average, ordinary, everyday people about situations they’re going through, and then, try and brainstorm solutions. I’m a problem solver that way. That’s where my passion lies, innovating ideas to improve lives. I recently completed a two week, eighty hour training to be a Peer Support Specialist. I earned a certificate from the Louisiana Department of Health to work with my peers, diagnosed with mental illnesses.
It’s just the first step in a long list of goals I have for the future. That’s what I love to do, it’s my passion, being there for people when they need someone. I also want to buy in on several properties for group homes, rehabs, half way house facilities nationally. I want my community to to have adequate resources available should they be needed.
I cope by journaling. I love to write, I always have, and I’m good with words too. Linguistic and performative self expression is how I best express myself. Through my personal writings and the way I show up in the world every day. My style of dress, my hair, nails, even my shoes are an expression of what’s inside of me. I love pastels, whites, and browns, neutrals. Some call them peasant clothes, others call them wedding garments. It depends on how I feel that day how I refer to them. But my love for clothes, especially clothes that flow with the wind is unparalleled. They’re cool in the summer and oh so feminine and relaxed fit. I would love to have my own fashion line, like what Donna Karen did with DKNY in the 1990’s and what it did for women’s work wear. I can see myself moving to Italy and opening a fashion house at some point in my life. Just to have done something my heart loves so deeply.
Also I love talking to my mental health team. Getting guidance and having a sounding board is priceless. I can never thank them enough for always validating me. I desire to take a little piece of the best in all of them, and apply it to myself, and become a very gifted and well rounded clinician, just as they all are. Talking with my counselors and learning about the next new cutting edge clinical therapies, and new mental health techniques being applied is also therapeutic. I’m learning for my own wellness, with the whole hearted intention on paying it forward when I’m finished with school.